Do you know,how much i misses the past..

Choudajing,how are you doing..I really missed you alot alot you know.I dont know whats gonna happen.But as i've said,no matter where we will be next time kosipei always loves you,needs you and misses you lots.

Yesterday joyjoy messaged me,she scared me yeah.But now she's alright,hopefully she is fine luhs(:

I really miss everything,really really.I have alot to say,but dont know how to express it out.I just miss everything,from feb till now really everything changed alot.Although your inside,you know i wouldnt forget you yeahs.Iloveyou,imissyou&ineedyou!

And i've changed my blogskin like finally :P

Baby,aint our memories way too beautiful?Its way too sweet,iloveyou.

Court postponed.

After everything i realised alot of things.I love my mother alotalots.Thanks for being there for me when im in my worst mood ever.And choudajing,although when im down your not here but i know if you are not in,you will be there for sure!So kosipei think positively,dont give up so easily yeah!Dajing,iloveyou&Imissyou&Ineedyou.<3

And also i thanks those who was there for me too like joy and lynn?Today met up with xiaobaby sister at her house early in the morning with joy.Although,i knew we drifted alot but peipei always love you alrights!No matter what conflicts we will be having,you will never be forgotten.And today,for so long since i hugged felicia tham!<3
Yeah,i promise no matter what,you will never be forgotten alrights!Yeah,i knew you feel the last time peipei is not there anymore..And yeah,im not that cheerful want anymore,but i still love you mahs!Loves(:

Joyjoy,thanks alot for being there alright.Really,i appreciate it alot for how you helped me with talking to my mum.And everything you done for me,how you never given up on me!Thanks alot sister,really.I dont know how to express my thank-fulness but really iloveyou!<3
Lynn chang,thanks for you helping me talk to my mum too alright!And all this while when you were there for me,thanks alot!I love your laas!

When im in my worst mood,at least im not alone.
Thanks everyone!For your,for myself or even for my boyfriend i promise i will try my best to be strong yeahs!

Buck up kosipei!I know you can(:Think for those who really care,they aint giving up so promise them dont disappoint them yeah.I really had alot to say,cannot finish luhs too much to say already.

Baby,it extended to one year didnt it?Choudajing../<3

Why everything turns to be the other way round,im fucking tired of everything okay.Seriously,i went visiting you,and you look surprised?!Do you know,i really love you.But guess when you come out,im already inside and not outside anymore.Cannot be with you anymore right..

Baby,you must really takecare,dont repeat the same mistakes anymore alright.Kosipei will always love you,no matter wheather im inside or outside alright..Baby,your the first and will be the last that makes my world go round and round.Baby,i wrote letter for you,but guess when you see this letter im already inside bahs!I did something wrong,and losing everything outside including you is the consequences. I promise i will wait for you,but now i cant.

Although so,baby dont give up.Faster do finish your 8 more months,maybe you should just find a better girl then me that can be there for you and not make you suffer like how you will be next time right.Baby,i really cant bare to bade goodbye so even if im going in,im not going to bade goodbye to you until you wants to.Seriously,one letter cannot fills everything that i wants to say yeah.Fugging hell,i want to say so much.But cannot,not anymore yeah.Baby,you must really stay strong.I know you have a kind heart,thats why now your in.No matter how other people thinks about you or whatever,kosipei always thinks that choudajing is a good good and nice nice guy yeah!

Baby,just maybe a few more days im not gonna be there for you anymore yeah.Although so,baby must stay strong!Your parents loves you,norman and co also will be there for you yeah!Must know how to think already,dont always stands for other people and forget about yourself alright!We do worry about you very much,at least when i visited you i saw you doing well.Im happy enough already.Baby,we got alot of memories,didnt we?!

We had lots of undone promises right?I dont know if by the time i come out we still have chance to fulfill everything,but do remember me alright.Cause i swear upon god,i will remember you choudajing!No matter whatever outcome it will be yeah./<3love,i>

Yesterday,went to jurong east mrt station to meet up with boyfriend's dad.His dad,was super cute and nice luh!And then after that,went to coffee shop to have our breakfast.And then went visiting boyfriend.Although i went there,i recieved a big bad news.But then at least i can get to see you,and knows that your doing well inside..Seriously,love i miss you lahs!

Sherilynkungmunyee./<3

tomorrow you will be in..And both of us knows that we may not have any chances outside this year anymore.But theres always tomorrow,although i cant bare to let go of anything and everything..This is our consequences,we get ourself to so..

But promise me,lead a new life yeah..Who will wants to lose all freedom?Who will wants to lose everything outside aye?!Nobody right..I dont know,without all of you loves want how im gonna live.But soon,i also leaving my loves wants.

Everything we do,theres a consequence.And yeah,everything is selfish.Kungmunyee,lead a new life alright.Kosipei will always remember our,good or even bad memories.Hope you will love yourself more yeah,dont cause of anything then be stupid.

Seriously,now the closest to me that is outside is you already.Everytime will be there for me,its you.But very soon we are losing ourself.Veryvery soon right..How i wish,time could turn back.I can exchange my whole life for you,for datou and for ivan!Can take my whole life,just to not let your in.But i know its impossible..):'I dont care how people will say about you,i know how you are jiu enough already alright.From the day we get our that stupid case,we dint lead a day happy right.You always trying to think positively,but in the end it turns up this way.Kungmunyee,no matter what that is going to happen i will always be there through it with you..

Lynn chang/<3

We became very close didnt we?Although maybe very soon i cant be with you anymore.But must always stay strong,im the only one who knows your top secret!Haha,thanks alot for everything.I realised,you really understands how i feel.And your always there,you can even nearly cry when you knows what is happening and heard me cry!Thanks alot,i really am very glad that i know you!

Lastly,

to my dearest family members.I know you guys will always be there for me,yeah?I really feel regret for what i have done that hurt you guys so much.But then,the most important is i realise my mistakes yeahs.

My mummy is the best out of all,whenever i cry she will be there.Thanks alot mum.Maybe communication breakdown causes all these.Although so,at least we are better now aint we?I really hope,your will takecare.I dont know if i go in,how are you guys gonna live..But maybe you all will lead a better life without a troublemaker like me yeah!

I still cant bare to let go of everything outside,maybe i just need time to adapt..I saying until like i gonna die!LOL,But seriously my heart is bleeding.Heartbreaks is worst than heartpains!Its bleeding like never before.

Blogger is sucha bitch,couldnt upload photos O:

And yeah,on felicia's birthday supposingly going to xiaobaby sister's house.But in the end mum insisted me going home,so went home.And then contacted with lynn,as i know her freedom is limited so i decided to run out after mum slept and then went meeting lynn and co to celebrate felicia's birthday.Went to och,and then i dint want to go in.As it will only rewinds me all those memories with tou..

Really,although its a eerie place,but thats the place me and tou's first day and celebrated valentines together there.So decided not to go in,cause im scared that i may cry..So stayed outside with lynn and fel.[;

then after everything,went era to audi!(:And then around 11 plus went home with lynn.She came my house awhile,chitchatted and then i fall asleep.She woke me up at 1 plus saying she is going to go home.So yeah,went back to sleep.And then went to kfc to get my kfc meal.Seriously nowadays kentaky fried chicken is deproving luh!I swear genting wants will be much more nicer luhs!

Cried for the whole two days..One day,so many things happened.How these things expect me to solve?!Im just a 15 year old girl ley,but nevermind.Afterall,i have to find ways to solve everything what!(:

I have alot to say,but should keep it inside yeah!

Everything wents the other way round,didnt it?Haha,everything is just a trick!Nothing is going well,everything that is happening it aint something good.Everything is a problem for me,seriously.Should i go back school and study even though i knows that going back school wouldnt stands a higher chance?!But i really have no heart to study,but all the officers for all my cases told me,if i go back school maybe they will consider to help me write good things on my statement.Aiyah,but everything is already done what,only hope they will not charge me.This is one of the problem,another want is about me and my boyfriend and then still got more.Those misunderstandings?Those family problems,friendship?Gosh,everything is killing me..

Seems to be like,this fugging year fugging sucks?Yeah,it sucks to the fugging core!Anyway had a chat yesterday with my dearest lynn chang!Thanks for being there to make me smiles,i love you so damn fugging much!And please,dont be so stupid already alright!Yeah,although must forgive and forget but must also learn how to accept and most importantly for you reject!And anyway,ahsiao that prata boy who kept asking people's stomach want how many hole was also inside the conference!We had a real funny chat,i knew lynn's 2 top secret!One was super funny,and one was super shocking!LOL,and then ah siao claims that we two girls kept irratate him so he went to ask botak[brother] to call in conference!And then after botak called,me and lynn dint get a chance to talk,because both of them was super noisy and busy gay-ing with each other,and alisaba with each other! o.o,LOL!And then due to never talk for too long,me ko peipei fall asleep!LOL,and then mum went in my room to take the phone and hang,so sorry the 3 of your!(:

And before talking to lynn,had a chat with gohjinfa that idiotic brother of mine!He loves to slang his malayu with me uh?!And his chinese,needs some improvement lahs!(:

LOL,okay and then right before that i was talking to joy about some idiot which all of us dont like!And then she's one of them who knows what totally happened!And thanks for everything you did sister!Seriously,your post is super touching uh,i wouldnt make you disappointed anymore yeah!Cause,I {L} you loads!

Anyway,today my mum was nice to buy me some cheese bread and some fishball noodles!Haha,and then she went out.I already ate so much in the morning,and then when she's coming back she still can ask me want to eat the fried fish noodle not!Haha,i got a feeling she wants to make me fat!Haha,anyway me and her bonding is getting better again..Hope everything will go fine for us yeah mummy!I love you{L}

Anyway,i found some photos which shows me like around one month ago?!I uploaded in com so long,but no chance for me to upload,so here it comes!(:Look at the first picture below,the person's butt is so fugging extra yeah!LOL >.<

I miss all those past when we hold our hands tight,and how you promised me that you wouldnt let go unless i want to.But im still worrying,isiit true?! }:'Aint us so sweet once before you went in?Aint no stress before..

Baby,the way you made my world around..):' There isnt anymore laughters,theres only hatred in my life right now after the 2nd of march!To me,i wouldnt want to make anyone sad,but only allow me to go through it not anybody who really loves me!Thanks for everything love,anyway stupid sherilyn be good already,your mother is worried for you dear!Supposingly yesterday should go parsiris to find drea they all,but too bad i have got no cash with me.How saddening uh,but actually staying at home is not that bad too.School holidays is going to end in like another 2 days!So fast time flys,should I or shouldnt I?'}:

Sometimes,its wrong to walk away although we might think its over?But seriously,im tired of holding on to everything its just a matter of i couldnt let go isnt it that way?!

IVANLIEW,im so happy when i heard you are doing well inside yeah!And i promise i will wait for you,i dont care im so gonna write many many letters for you.And stupid currypuff,make sure if i go in you will wait for me too idiot!All of us miss you currypuff,Faster faster time faster fly yeah!Everybody is waiting for that idiot ivan's return!(:

{LOVES}

We took this photo with a cute banana background at iluma!Haha,Im at the first want counting from the left yeah!Haha,That day was a tiring day,but was a happy day too.because finally we met up altogether yeah,and after that went for seesha!Xiaobaby sis,was making funny actions lahs!Haha,and then after seesha,went to mos burger at first dint saw boonkiat and then after that saw him went to talk to him he spare me one stick of malboro lights!(:And then,i told him he changed alot,and fugging hell he told me that i saw him but step one dint see him.But at first i really dint what idiot!And please you stupid tanboonkiat faster go home now!Lynn and me is super worried for you ass,why are you breaching your probation again leyzxzx,Fugging ass see this post or whatever faster contact lynn or me!

i seriously need you to come out,i want to share all my things with you):'
You know how much i fucking miss you my datou..If you guys were in my shoes,you will eventually understand..
But then,somehow cause of some stupid MISUNDERSTANDINGS,you guys,dont even bother to come clarify things with me and the things that you guys heard is totally different from what really happened!Whatever,just cause of this stupid idiot misunderstanding,And i wont even think its worth it,KNOW HOW MUCH YOU GUYS HAVE CHANGE ANOT?!Yes,somehow i was being playful but did i done anything wrong towards him?!PLEASE DONT HEAR ONE SIDE STORY!

I WILL APPRECIATE THAT!!!

18 months,they are playing a trick on us!

Ivanliewzhengkang,when nobody trust me,you did.This time round its my turn.

Haha,currypuff guess this world is playing a trick on us.My dearest currypuff,how we used to promise each other we wouldnt be in trouble?I still remembered at your court sentence,you told me it would only be 3 weeks.And why it fucking turns out to be a one year and six months?Currypuff,can you tell me how you want us to live without all your nonsense for so long?You remembered how we used to laugh at each other funny actions and nonsense?Remembered how you stands for me when i get caught when nobody believes me?Your the first want,who is so worried for me,the first want who wants to get me out of all troubles..Now,i cant even help you in any..any of these troubles.Am i seriously that useless?Currypuff,its 18 months you know..Its not 18 days ley,its 18 months.I seriously dont know,when you come out can you still see me outside..But if i can,i will wait for you my dearest closest brother.Those days,we had our rubbish together,nobody could replace..

Only you,get super angry when i get into troubles,get super worried..But now what?For the first sentence,you told me its only 3 weeks?Why after 3 weeks i planned to tell you everything in my heart,now i cant?Just cause of your fugging po,who accused that you lied.All of us that is close to you,should know that you wont lie cause we know that you will very much wants to come out and enjoy with us.HAHA,I tell you the fugging po and lawyer of yours is seriously unfair cause even if you lied,you wouldnt cry out so loud and say you DINT!And even cried and look at us,HAHA i fugging want to laugh at your po and lawyer when they look at us cry luh cause they are accusing you and yet they can tell your mother is you dont know how to learn from mistakes!Everybody needs many chances in life what,i believe if one day they will be like you then they will know la!They are the ones who made till everybody tearing and they still have the cheeks to see us cry.And the lawyer still can raise his voice at your mother when your mother is just trying to help you.Yeah,rubbish luh!

Remember,all those days which we could use both of our laughters to cover everything?But now,no more..It only could be replaced with tears,I dont care so much im going to visit you no matter how much you dont want us to.Currypuff,i know you too well you loves to appear strong infront of everybody.But i know,you cant.Nobody could be that strong,Liewzhengkang we all will miss you!Will fugging miss you luh..Remember,how we used to get worried for each other?How we use to share our stress?How we used to console each other,why cant everything turn back.Why cant that stupid po or lawyer see how much you have changed when everybody could see even your mother..

Once,i can make you laugh out super loud.Once,i see your real laughters,why now i can only see you cry..Im useless,sorry currypuff..Why right now,i can only see your helpless face and no more your smiles,no more your laughters?!Im sorry,very very sorry..

Jiaer sister,you get sentenced 1 month girls home 1 year hostel..Sister,behave yourself now alright..I dont want to lose anybody anymore.

Choudajing,baby it seems to be like after you went in.Everything dint went smooth for me,didnt it?Do you know how much i miss our past,how much i misses you?!):'Baby,tell me what to do will you..I feel so useless i couldnt help anybody.Maybe i should just leave every single thing behind,but i cant bare to..):'

And baby sis,i never spend more time with who now..I stay at home,for like quite long already sister.Nevermind,i know me to you is already different so its alright.Just stay happy,always i still love you.

Now,in my heart there are no more laughters..
There are only,sadness&hatred.

Jiaer,sis iloveyou(:

Sister,no matter what your sentence will be.I will always remember the days,we are so close(:And even those misunderstandings too!Because,its all our memories(:I seriously dont wish to lose you cause everybody is leaving me.Even me,im losing myself and guess i told you before right!But whatever the outcome will be,still hope we can change(:The important thing,is not the outcome or the things we do,is when we done it we realised our mistakes yeah!

Dont get hurt anymore,last long my dearest!Love you alot alot alright,If ray dare to bully you,tell me.I will smack him upside down yeah!Anything,i will still be here for you alright.Although i cant help much,but i will be here for you(:

And yeah,think its 4 more days to ivan's court review!Hope i can still go for his court!Currypuff,hope your doing fine!I miss those times we share our heart talks and those time you are the one who will always believe me!And i know,your not that strong you appear to be,cause nobody is!Hope,you will get probation,ivan the currypuff!

Heyyyoh,just came back from report!

And happily,the blood test results haven come yet!

so 7th june event!Whose going?should be getting tickets from cynthia!

LOL,Currently at bukit BATOK!):' Siannnn daoooo.

For what i've done,i seriously regretted.Just wanting to say,i'm sorry.

Accept the facts,although it hard.I have to,with no choice.
Tomorrow will be my reporting already,wondering what might be happening.Before my baby went in,nothing like this happen.My smiles are still for real,right now.Its even hard to give one fake want.I'm sorry,about all these things.If you knew about it,you must be super disappointed for what i promised you,i dint done it.After my reporting tomorrow if nothing happen,most probably will be off to bugis with chocolate and clarissa(:

Stayed at home for the whole day,i spent the whole day sleeping.Actually,home is not a so bad place too.Want do what also can,but maybe just abit bored but overall its still alright luh!(:

Yeah,ask you continue spamming really continue spamming uh?GOOD DOGGIE!

Never did i thought,days by days im getting worst.Everything is not improving,its not i swear.And infact,everything is making me feel worst.Baby,by the day you come out.Im not sure if im still outside for you,because me myself have a high chance going in sit too.If im still outside,then its good.But if im not,then you seriously have to takecare of yourself and dont repeat the same mistakes again alright?And find a girl,who can be there for you unlike me.Baby,remember i will always remember you,our memories together.It will be kept in my heart no matter what will happen after you come out,no matter if im can still be with you its fine.Just want you to know,i will always love you no matter what.Remember,those days at your house?Those sweetest words you said to me,and even those arguements?Baby,i just love you.I just want to wait for you,but now i dont think i can anymore.Promise me,must takecare if there's no more last chance.I swear there are so much more unsaid words i want to tell you,but baby maybe those unsaid words forever it couldnt be said anymore.

I thought,i will be fine.But kosipei,just face the facts that you will not be let off so easily yeah!
Face the consequences bravely,Kosipei!Other people can,why cant you?!You can do it too.But seriously,before everything happen,aint i'm that cheerful girl?If all these things start,happily but have to end in miseries.Then i rather,everything dint started at all even if there will be no memories.Because,it not only bring hurts to myself,it hurts the both of us.Isnt it?Its hurting me,but i guess it may hurt you too.I'm sorry,maybe i was just too selfish.Because,i always do stupid things,and then end up regretting and it hurt everybody.I dint thought of how people around me who really cares will feel.It must be disappointing each and single one of you.I promise to wait for every love want that is inside,but i failed to.All these rubbish i done,seriously is nonsense! 

不能在一起也沒關系
只少你懂我的心 會在想你
那些回憶會永遠保持甜蜜

不管未來你會在哪里
我都不會忘記 我愛你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比從前開心
♥♥

Ohmygod,this few days i kept tonning continuosly till i really have no money left luh!):'

And passerbys,fucking hell keep on spamming uh!(:
Please luh,none of your the business luh asses.
Continue spamming luh doggie!

-30th may-31st may.

Went to tampines,supposingly can meet fiona.But in the end didnt):'Damn tiring,dint get a wink of sleep like for over 24 hours!And yesterday,me and sherilyn was like damn angry over an attention seeker girl!She's so annoying,we were like doing stuffs and she kept crying.But actually,i pity her much too..Hmms,anyway actually nothing much about it too.Boonkiat called me in the afternoon,and then off he went bugis.And in the night 11plus,just now he called me too.He was like giving me alot of names!There is,buy pork de aunty and many more!He is like making me laugh like fugging hell!Thanks for entertaining me stupid piggy(:

Just came home from tamp,damn tiring luh.Sherilyn is going yishun!(:Ivan liew zheng kang,its been 6 days since you are inside!Fasterfaster time,faster pass!

So boring at home , doing nothing.Goodness sake.I miss all the times when,your still around.14th is the date i will always remember.Nobody can pull me away from you dearest.

Super stress right now,3 more days..

I swear i look damn cork luh!But its alright!

Oh my god,i grewed fat luh!I kept eating this few days!Eat alot alot,but dint sleep for alotalot too!Lol,i want to be on diet!Haha,yeah agreed to what boonkiat said.If will,it means will.If wouldnt,means it wouldnt.But too bad,i just dont want it to happen!

Hi teoyanling,last long yeahs.I will always love you.After a long time finally,you get who you want dint you?Treasure what your having right now,dont be like me regretting what i've done although its not link to love!Haha,But yeah,talked to drea on phone.She claims that my feeling faded,but the fact is i dint!Is just that,im seriously very stress and i have no fugging mood anymore.But i still love my dajing(:

Drea,i miss you sister!Ohgosh,how i wish i could beside you now luh!Oh,i want to tell you so many things,and is like so many fugging things!Imissyou to the fugging max!

You said i dint blog about you uh!But yeah,now in the early ,morning you must be glad i blogged about you!Yeah,hope what you said on the phone will come true.Before talking to drea on phone,im talking to TanBoonkiat!Haha!

Went on a very very long trip luh.From,bedok to redhill and then serangoon and then chocolate's house.Actually that stupid boonkiat was supposed to meet me at batok,i went down in the end he dint turn up!And he called to say sorry!Haha,alright your forgiven(:And then from batok,to bugis and then back home.Have been thinking what will happen on 3rd of june.Hope nothing will happen buh.Anyway,i kept eating at home.NAH,i cant stay at home anymore because i keep eating at home but if im outside i will not eat as at home i have too many food to eat!And its all junk food!I swear i will grow fat!So KOPEIPEI,now is the time to be on diet!Thank you very muchy!

I swear,im super regret now for what i have done.And i realised,the only people who will always be there is the ones that i disappointed the most,and its my parents.They are there with no fears whenever i get into troubles,they are always there to encourage me.I swear,i want to change for them.Im sick and tired of making them sad and seeing them cry.And what really hurts,is their broken shattered hearts.They must be more stressed than im,ko sipei you must try to understand them more alright!You must work very very hard this time round no matter what the outcome will be!

Seriously,baby tell me what to do..
Maybe,i dont have this chance to wait anymore ,
so if there isnt,you have to takecare of yourself,
remember no matter what the outcome will be.I will always love you..
Trust me,i will try my best to stay strong.

Just one more last chance,i swear upon i will treasure it.

Kosipei is currently not feeling good,
slowly 7 more days to my reporting date.Im very very worried right now.
Mummy told me that if 3rd of june i have nothing happen,
She might bring me go to genting!Hooray(:So i pray hard nothing will happen!Mummy is the best(:

7th june,there's an event(:If nothing happen to me on 3rd june,i want gooooooooo(:

Liewzhengkang,hope your doing fine yeahsszxzx

CURRYPUFF!~Vanilla miss you alot,faster come out and have fun together again alrights!Sherilyn told me you were disappointed that only she went.But currypuff,i no ezlink or any identifical card):'Cant go in either,but i will make it fast so can go visit yeah!My dearest currypuff,im sorry for not visiting you as i dont have my ezlink or any identifical card with me.If i have this one more last chance for my case,i promise i will seriously wait for you.Be good inside yeah,as an elder brother whenever i get into trouble.With no fears,your always here for me.Yeah,you told me it was just 3 weeks.If only,i dint get into any troubles i will have no fears to see you in 3 weeks time,but ..Right now,i seriously dont know.If i really have just one last chance..Really,how i wish right now we still can heart to heart talk together.I really wish now i can be telling you how im feeling.I failed to help anybody,and myself.

Im sorry..Veryvery,sorry.

2 days ago,gordon called me saying he was stress of his rioting case.Its 148,not 147.But brother,whats done is already done.Just hope that you will really change after this case alright.And yeah,im very stressed too as i have too many cases.3rd of june i have to go back reporting too..And im seriously damn fugging stress.Yeah,met up with gordon to reseirvoir at around 2 plus in the middle of night?It was close to 3.Down there,i thought alot of things.Drea told me she have a feeling they will give me one more chance,i hope they will.I think of alot of things,the moment i hear the song have you ever i broke down into tears again.It really meant alot to me that song,i sang it with ivan before.And this song reminds me of everything.I miss my datou,i miss alot of things.I miss ivan my closest brother!

Gordon chen,remember.Whats done is already done,its too late to regret.But you still have the choice to see if you want to change anot,its up to you yeah!As i've said,everybody is leaving me.Another want might be you,or me myself too.But bare the consequences bravely brother!

To passerby,weather is my boy-f fat i dont think you should care so much as its none of your business?(:If you want,continue tagging as i dont give a damn.

Currypuff,must really takecare..

Today morning went for ivan's court.Supposingly wanted to give him some surprise,but cause went to check for boonkiats court and we were late.And then in the end he send me this message saying he sure will go in,we ran all the way up to his court..The moment i step in,i see him i felt so helpless and i cried.He consoled me saying its just 3 weeks,must go visit him..Sigh,why is all these happening.And maybe i dont even have this chance to go your court review.When you step in the remand room,you turned back..):And i saw your face,again i felt so fugging helpless..No matter what i will wait,remember those days we sing together the song have you ever??Remember days when i get caught,how worried you was for me till you dint really get to sleep?!I hope you will be ok inside.After this,please learn your lessons as i've already learnt..):'Dont make me worry already alright.You should know,my boyfriend,my close friends are all inside.Now is your turn..):'Currypuff,remember must really takecare of yourself alright!But currypuff,at least i can cry infront of you.But when my boyfriend go in,i have to fugging tolerate my tears till i really burst.Right now,im crying.I will be waiting for you too,And dont worry,i will contact your mother teach your mother how to go alright!And when i get to make my ezlink,i will sure go visit you.

As an elder brother,as a close brother.Your always there for me,when i get into troubles,when nobody believes me.You did,from the bottom of my heart,i really thank you alot.You made me realise at least there is some want who will really trust me.Now is my turn,to work hard and wait for you.The moment i heard,you are going to get sentenced to qrp seriously i broke down already.Whenever i lost hopes,your always there.When i heard that is ahpui..I seriously dont want and i cant even believe is him whos the main point for how depressed im right now.Currypuff,promise me.Must really takecare,dont make me worry.And i promise,i wont get into anymore troubles again if i get one more last chance alright!I will heed to your advices,and yeah i know your not that strong that you appear to be,Nobody actually is..Ivan liew zhengkang,i promise i will be there for you!Just that now i cant,since i can wait for my boyfriend for so many months already,i can do it to wait for you too!Faster come out together wait for my boy-f alright!Nobody is that strong,neither am i.Im sorry everybody..I failed to help anyone.Your helpless face when you turned back,i broke down..

Its 3 weeks currypuff.Please currypuff,learn your lessons.We are just following people's path and this is our consequences,promise me treat your mother nicely after you come out please.She is worried alright,of cause im too..

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

I wished,there was a chance to say im sorry to everybody i loved.I failed to help anybody close to me,im sorry.Felt my heart was breaking.

Slowly,im losing all those who will be there for me.Maybe,the next might be me.But i still hope i will have the chance to wait for your to come out.I must learn to be strong,must learn to bear the consequences bravely,Stay strong,ko sipei.

Now,im still tearing..

Seriously,May sucks to the fugging core luh!

Kwanbeeshi,seriously its all regrets.I know you must be super sad now.Im sorry i couldnt help much seriously..Sigh,i miss you like hell.Right now,i seriously am very shag kept thinking why all these happen.Rememeber what you promised me,face the consequences bravely!Although i couldnt be there for you anymore,but really i can imagine how much i will miss you.All these whole year,we've been through ups and downs.Quarrells,happy,sad moments.Seriously,i dont want all these to happen to you!):'But you really must takecare alrights?):'I will love you like always although we have drifted alot alot..

This few days was at outram,and yeahyeah something happened yesterday morning and it seriously scared me.May seriously is a sucky month to me!So many things happened in the way i dont want it to be or either unexpected.This year can be said so that,only the starting 2 months its great.From march till now,it seriously sucks like hell.Gosh,i cant believe 2 more days so fast its ivan's last sentence.Currypuff!Ohmygod,hope nothing will happen to you seriously.Everybody is leaving me,maybe myself to be the next.

But whats the use of thinking so much,whats done it cant be undone right.So yeah,i only have to pray hard thats all,and most importantly i want to change.Dont know since when,im like that!Seriously,i want back that last time me!):'

And yeah,supposingly yesterday after a night sentosa trip,we were going pasiris.But not too sure why we cant go there in the end.So its alright(:Yesterday,tonned at sentosa.Im like feeding bunch of mosquitoes!Went there with sherilyn,cynthia and karen.To meet sherilyn's friends.Boonkiat was there too!But i thought you got probation?Lol,monday will be your court too manzx,have to take great care(:

And yeah,add on something!I swear sentosa in the night at siloso need some torch.Its super dark,and we four girls were lost at first!And then we get on this so called ranger van,the driver was nice enough to drive us to the place we described.But in the end,we were at the wrong place.-.-So we have to walk a long way back to the 7-eleven we passed by.=.=Why sentosa got to be so big even if it can be counted as tourist attraction?!Lol

Ohgosh,baby baby imissyou):'Not that i dont want to write letters or visit you.Its because i really dont know how to send that letter to you,but rena taught me!So happy,at least i can write letters give you(:I miss you!And baby,maybe i should heed to your advice yeah.Im so stupid to have kept helping her talk.

Ximgua,really thanks for understanding.I knew alot of people wont forgive me already,i really hope you will.If we have this really last chance,treasure it okay.I really dont want to go in,and i wont want see you inside too.Lets pray we will have our this very very last chance,I knew our mother really will be so heartbroken already.Although alot of people might be hating me right now,i still hope you wont.I get you into all these troubles,im sorry.

And shed tears for us so many times,this time round they must be still feeling the same.Hope the report everything will turn out to be fine buhs.I dont want to lose you too,seriously.Last time,so many misunderstandings in between us already,right now we are close.

So please please,i pray nothing will happen!I really want to wait for my toutou);'But maybe no more chance already,seriously hope nothing will happen to the both of us alright!I dont know how to express how im feeling right now,those cannot tell out the feeling really hurts.);'Seeing people around me all going in,i dont want to be that another want.And i dont want you too..):'Ximgua,remember i will always love you too alright.

Although both of us know that this time round,its very hard to get chance anymore already.I still hope we wont disappoint our mothers and people around us anymore alright.We must be making them damn worried.Yeah,agreed.Whats done couldnt be undone maybe its just our life buhs..):'Seriously,i pray so hard not to go in.If the both of us can have nothing happen i so hope that we will really change.I dont mind having probation of stuff to at least get the both of us still outside..Right now,really im feeling miserable.

Maybe,i will be meeting you today to go apply job buhs(:And remember,we have to go temple pray lei!Really,feeling damn suey this few days.May sucks,i hate may seriously.Let us pray hard we will get one more last chance alright,iloveyou.

Heartbreaking,depressed.

Peipei, Dont blame yourself !

girl , sorry. i really dont wants you to think so much. lets the both of us promises okays? dont be so naughts already! It's look like our dearest mummy & daddy are worry for us. Soooooooooooooooo shag seriously.

fcuking guilty lo, mummy drop tear for me , dont know how many times already!

And ya, dont blame yourself already okays, i wont hate you one laas, because of this silly things hate you?. You crazy huh, do i look so small gas!? I then wont wants lose you!

Aiya, if really somethings , happen on both of us. we really cant do anythings de.

Its the fact seriously, and ours life.

Remember what i told you in there,

What Done Can't Be Undone , It's All Regret ):"

No matter what others say, i always be there for you okays?

Don't forget i'm always your Noisy , Stupid , Foolish EHKIA rights?

Ohya, remember must eat alots alots okays,

you're not fat la, silly girl!

KoShiPei , SherilynKungMunYee always love you.

You must be sleeping now. Dont think much.

Nights(:

See this photo long ago of mine,think last year? :x So fat,haha.Okay,just went for reporting now back at home waiting for time to pass and then have to go batok to meet lynn and boonkiat and co.Gosh,so god damn farrrrrrrr.But nevermind!Today is like wednesday.I miss my sisters,i want to meet them on saturday,i miss that stupid sherilyn's nonsenseee toooo(:Haha!I want to make nuffangs ads,but sadly i cant due to some stupid reasons):'

Byeee,my lovely mum wants to use the com already,stay tune readers!

It seems to be untrue.

Wtffff,so many things been happening luh..And bringing me depressed.Those bitches!All liars.Humans are so horrible luh okay.

And kwanbeeshi,hope you will takecare okay.I will always love you.

Jiaer,dont make stupid mistakes again okay,i will always love you.

Heyoh people.This is like the overdue photo taken like last week?Haha,this is yiling(:Funny her wearing x.ahboi's jacket right!She called me just now anyway,meet up soon girl(:

Goshhhhh,now in upp serangoon lan shop luh.So bored,audi audi all the way.Must train already,or not so left out):'Boring,nowadays people are getting caught,so irratating manzx.And jiaer sister,faster meet me soon alright.Dont do foolish things anymore alright.I will always be here,although nowadays i very less meet you guys luh.But must miss me manzx,because i do miss you guys alot alot luhhhh.

World is so horrible,full of liars luh.Those who know should know who im refering to-.- Whatever,biatch

The world is so damn fucking horrible.

Those who knows what is really happening,should know what im refering too.All these while i still tried my best to believe this everything.But in the end what did i get in return?Guess,only those who knows should knows how im feeling right now.Im getting fooled by a biatchhhh?Goshhh,how damn horrible this world can be luh.

Seriously,i miss all those times in bugis with my sisters.I knew that somehow maybe we wouldnt get to be as close as last time,somehow you guys thinks that this sistership is not important to me anymore,but its not.Its still as important as last time,but really maybe is my fault who dint take the intiative to hold this sistership closely.But actually,i did tried my best.I just can say im sorry to make you guys feel this way.But how your looking in this sistership right now,is not how im looking at it now.Im sorry,seriously.Alot of things to stress about already.My cases,my boy-f,my family and even my sisters.So fuked up stress ):'

How i wish im still that girl who dont have any stress,living my life happily with an innocent character.Right now,im thinking.Why everybody is changing,even myself.I only know,i want this another 4 months to faster over because seriously i miss you like damn hell.