Heyyyoh,just came back from report!

And happily,the blood test results haven come yet!

so 7th june event!Whose going?should be getting tickets from cynthia!

LOL,Currently at bukit BATOK!):' Siannnn daoooo.

For what i've done,i seriously regretted.Just wanting to say,i'm sorry.

Accept the facts,although it hard.I have to,with no choice.
Tomorrow will be my reporting already,wondering what might be happening.Before my baby went in,nothing like this happen.My smiles are still for real,right now.Its even hard to give one fake want.I'm sorry,about all these things.If you knew about it,you must be super disappointed for what i promised you,i dint done it.After my reporting tomorrow if nothing happen,most probably will be off to bugis with chocolate and clarissa(:

Stayed at home for the whole day,i spent the whole day sleeping.Actually,home is not a so bad place too.Want do what also can,but maybe just abit bored but overall its still alright luh!(:

Yeah,ask you continue spamming really continue spamming uh?GOOD DOGGIE!

Never did i thought,days by days im getting worst.Everything is not improving,its not i swear.And infact,everything is making me feel worst.Baby,by the day you come out.Im not sure if im still outside for you,because me myself have a high chance going in sit too.If im still outside,then its good.But if im not,then you seriously have to takecare of yourself and dont repeat the same mistakes again alright?And find a girl,who can be there for you unlike me.Baby,remember i will always remember you,our memories together.It will be kept in my heart no matter what will happen after you come out,no matter if im can still be with you its fine.Just want you to know,i will always love you no matter what.Remember,those days at your house?Those sweetest words you said to me,and even those arguements?Baby,i just love you.I just want to wait for you,but now i dont think i can anymore.Promise me,must takecare if there's no more last chance.I swear there are so much more unsaid words i want to tell you,but baby maybe those unsaid words forever it couldnt be said anymore.

I thought,i will be fine.But kosipei,just face the facts that you will not be let off so easily yeah!
Face the consequences bravely,Kosipei!Other people can,why cant you?!You can do it too.But seriously,before everything happen,aint i'm that cheerful girl?If all these things start,happily but have to end in miseries.Then i rather,everything dint started at all even if there will be no memories.Because,it not only bring hurts to myself,it hurts the both of us.Isnt it?Its hurting me,but i guess it may hurt you too.I'm sorry,maybe i was just too selfish.Because,i always do stupid things,and then end up regretting and it hurt everybody.I dint thought of how people around me who really cares will feel.It must be disappointing each and single one of you.I promise to wait for every love want that is inside,but i failed to.All these rubbish i done,seriously is nonsense! 

不能在一起也沒關系
只少你懂我的心 會在想你
那些回憶會永遠保持甜蜜

不管未來你會在哪里
我都不會忘記 我愛你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比從前開心
♥♥

Ohmygod,this few days i kept tonning continuosly till i really have no money left luh!):'

And passerbys,fucking hell keep on spamming uh!(:
Please luh,none of your the business luh asses.
Continue spamming luh doggie!

-30th may-31st may.

Went to tampines,supposingly can meet fiona.But in the end didnt):'Damn tiring,dint get a wink of sleep like for over 24 hours!And yesterday,me and sherilyn was like damn angry over an attention seeker girl!She's so annoying,we were like doing stuffs and she kept crying.But actually,i pity her much too..Hmms,anyway actually nothing much about it too.Boonkiat called me in the afternoon,and then off he went bugis.And in the night 11plus,just now he called me too.He was like giving me alot of names!There is,buy pork de aunty and many more!He is like making me laugh like fugging hell!Thanks for entertaining me stupid piggy(:

Just came home from tamp,damn tiring luh.Sherilyn is going yishun!(:Ivan liew zheng kang,its been 6 days since you are inside!Fasterfaster time,faster pass!

So boring at home , doing nothing.Goodness sake.I miss all the times when,your still around.14th is the date i will always remember.Nobody can pull me away from you dearest.

Super stress right now,3 more days..

I swear i look damn cork luh!But its alright!

Oh my god,i grewed fat luh!I kept eating this few days!Eat alot alot,but dint sleep for alotalot too!Lol,i want to be on diet!Haha,yeah agreed to what boonkiat said.If will,it means will.If wouldnt,means it wouldnt.But too bad,i just dont want it to happen!

Hi teoyanling,last long yeahs.I will always love you.After a long time finally,you get who you want dint you?Treasure what your having right now,dont be like me regretting what i've done although its not link to love!Haha,But yeah,talked to drea on phone.She claims that my feeling faded,but the fact is i dint!Is just that,im seriously very stress and i have no fugging mood anymore.But i still love my dajing(:

Drea,i miss you sister!Ohgosh,how i wish i could beside you now luh!Oh,i want to tell you so many things,and is like so many fugging things!Imissyou to the fugging max!

You said i dint blog about you uh!But yeah,now in the early ,morning you must be glad i blogged about you!Yeah,hope what you said on the phone will come true.Before talking to drea on phone,im talking to TanBoonkiat!Haha!

Went on a very very long trip luh.From,bedok to redhill and then serangoon and then chocolate's house.Actually that stupid boonkiat was supposed to meet me at batok,i went down in the end he dint turn up!And he called to say sorry!Haha,alright your forgiven(:And then from batok,to bugis and then back home.Have been thinking what will happen on 3rd of june.Hope nothing will happen buh.Anyway,i kept eating at home.NAH,i cant stay at home anymore because i keep eating at home but if im outside i will not eat as at home i have too many food to eat!And its all junk food!I swear i will grow fat!So KOPEIPEI,now is the time to be on diet!Thank you very muchy!

I swear,im super regret now for what i have done.And i realised,the only people who will always be there is the ones that i disappointed the most,and its my parents.They are there with no fears whenever i get into troubles,they are always there to encourage me.I swear,i want to change for them.Im sick and tired of making them sad and seeing them cry.And what really hurts,is their broken shattered hearts.They must be more stressed than im,ko sipei you must try to understand them more alright!You must work very very hard this time round no matter what the outcome will be!

Seriously,baby tell me what to do..
Maybe,i dont have this chance to wait anymore ,
so if there isnt,you have to takecare of yourself,
remember no matter what the outcome will be.I will always love you..
Trust me,i will try my best to stay strong.

Just one more last chance,i swear upon i will treasure it.

Kosipei is currently not feeling good,
slowly 7 more days to my reporting date.Im very very worried right now.
Mummy told me that if 3rd of june i have nothing happen,
She might bring me go to genting!Hooray(:So i pray hard nothing will happen!Mummy is the best(:

7th june,there's an event(:If nothing happen to me on 3rd june,i want gooooooooo(:

Liewzhengkang,hope your doing fine yeahsszxzx

CURRYPUFF!~Vanilla miss you alot,faster come out and have fun together again alrights!Sherilyn told me you were disappointed that only she went.But currypuff,i no ezlink or any identifical card):'Cant go in either,but i will make it fast so can go visit yeah!My dearest currypuff,im sorry for not visiting you as i dont have my ezlink or any identifical card with me.If i have this one more last chance for my case,i promise i will seriously wait for you.Be good inside yeah,as an elder brother whenever i get into trouble.With no fears,your always here for me.Yeah,you told me it was just 3 weeks.If only,i dint get into any troubles i will have no fears to see you in 3 weeks time,but ..Right now,i seriously dont know.If i really have just one last chance..Really,how i wish right now we still can heart to heart talk together.I really wish now i can be telling you how im feeling.I failed to help anybody,and myself.

Im sorry..Veryvery,sorry.

2 days ago,gordon called me saying he was stress of his rioting case.Its 148,not 147.But brother,whats done is already done.Just hope that you will really change after this case alright.And yeah,im very stressed too as i have too many cases.3rd of june i have to go back reporting too..And im seriously damn fugging stress.Yeah,met up with gordon to reseirvoir at around 2 plus in the middle of night?It was close to 3.Down there,i thought alot of things.Drea told me she have a feeling they will give me one more chance,i hope they will.I think of alot of things,the moment i hear the song have you ever i broke down into tears again.It really meant alot to me that song,i sang it with ivan before.And this song reminds me of everything.I miss my datou,i miss alot of things.I miss ivan my closest brother!

Gordon chen,remember.Whats done is already done,its too late to regret.But you still have the choice to see if you want to change anot,its up to you yeah!As i've said,everybody is leaving me.Another want might be you,or me myself too.But bare the consequences bravely brother!

To passerby,weather is my boy-f fat i dont think you should care so much as its none of your business?(:If you want,continue tagging as i dont give a damn.

Currypuff,must really takecare..

Today morning went for ivan's court.Supposingly wanted to give him some surprise,but cause went to check for boonkiats court and we were late.And then in the end he send me this message saying he sure will go in,we ran all the way up to his court..The moment i step in,i see him i felt so helpless and i cried.He consoled me saying its just 3 weeks,must go visit him..Sigh,why is all these happening.And maybe i dont even have this chance to go your court review.When you step in the remand room,you turned back..):And i saw your face,again i felt so fugging helpless..No matter what i will wait,remember those days we sing together the song have you ever??Remember days when i get caught,how worried you was for me till you dint really get to sleep?!I hope you will be ok inside.After this,please learn your lessons as i've already learnt..):'Dont make me worry already alright.You should know,my boyfriend,my close friends are all inside.Now is your turn..):'Currypuff,remember must really takecare of yourself alright!But currypuff,at least i can cry infront of you.But when my boyfriend go in,i have to fugging tolerate my tears till i really burst.Right now,im crying.I will be waiting for you too,And dont worry,i will contact your mother teach your mother how to go alright!And when i get to make my ezlink,i will sure go visit you.

As an elder brother,as a close brother.Your always there for me,when i get into troubles,when nobody believes me.You did,from the bottom of my heart,i really thank you alot.You made me realise at least there is some want who will really trust me.Now is my turn,to work hard and wait for you.The moment i heard,you are going to get sentenced to qrp seriously i broke down already.Whenever i lost hopes,your always there.When i heard that is ahpui..I seriously dont want and i cant even believe is him whos the main point for how depressed im right now.Currypuff,promise me.Must really takecare,dont make me worry.And i promise,i wont get into anymore troubles again if i get one more last chance alright!I will heed to your advices,and yeah i know your not that strong that you appear to be,Nobody actually is..Ivan liew zhengkang,i promise i will be there for you!Just that now i cant,since i can wait for my boyfriend for so many months already,i can do it to wait for you too!Faster come out together wait for my boy-f alright!Nobody is that strong,neither am i.Im sorry everybody..I failed to help anyone.Your helpless face when you turned back,i broke down..

Its 3 weeks currypuff.Please currypuff,learn your lessons.We are just following people's path and this is our consequences,promise me treat your mother nicely after you come out please.She is worried alright,of cause im too..

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

I wished,there was a chance to say im sorry to everybody i loved.I failed to help anybody close to me,im sorry.Felt my heart was breaking.

Slowly,im losing all those who will be there for me.Maybe,the next might be me.But i still hope i will have the chance to wait for your to come out.I must learn to be strong,must learn to bear the consequences bravely,Stay strong,ko sipei.

Now,im still tearing..

Seriously,May sucks to the fugging core luh!

Kwanbeeshi,seriously its all regrets.I know you must be super sad now.Im sorry i couldnt help much seriously..Sigh,i miss you like hell.Right now,i seriously am very shag kept thinking why all these happen.Rememeber what you promised me,face the consequences bravely!Although i couldnt be there for you anymore,but really i can imagine how much i will miss you.All these whole year,we've been through ups and downs.Quarrells,happy,sad moments.Seriously,i dont want all these to happen to you!):'But you really must takecare alrights?):'I will love you like always although we have drifted alot alot..

This few days was at outram,and yeahyeah something happened yesterday morning and it seriously scared me.May seriously is a sucky month to me!So many things happened in the way i dont want it to be or either unexpected.This year can be said so that,only the starting 2 months its great.From march till now,it seriously sucks like hell.Gosh,i cant believe 2 more days so fast its ivan's last sentence.Currypuff!Ohmygod,hope nothing will happen to you seriously.Everybody is leaving me,maybe myself to be the next.

But whats the use of thinking so much,whats done it cant be undone right.So yeah,i only have to pray hard thats all,and most importantly i want to change.Dont know since when,im like that!Seriously,i want back that last time me!):'

And yeah,supposingly yesterday after a night sentosa trip,we were going pasiris.But not too sure why we cant go there in the end.So its alright(:Yesterday,tonned at sentosa.Im like feeding bunch of mosquitoes!Went there with sherilyn,cynthia and karen.To meet sherilyn's friends.Boonkiat was there too!But i thought you got probation?Lol,monday will be your court too manzx,have to take great care(:

And yeah,add on something!I swear sentosa in the night at siloso need some torch.Its super dark,and we four girls were lost at first!And then we get on this so called ranger van,the driver was nice enough to drive us to the place we described.But in the end,we were at the wrong place.-.-So we have to walk a long way back to the 7-eleven we passed by.=.=Why sentosa got to be so big even if it can be counted as tourist attraction?!Lol

Ohgosh,baby baby imissyou):'Not that i dont want to write letters or visit you.Its because i really dont know how to send that letter to you,but rena taught me!So happy,at least i can write letters give you(:I miss you!And baby,maybe i should heed to your advice yeah.Im so stupid to have kept helping her talk.