Im very stress now people.Nobody will ever understand how i feel.Very stressed,and i knew my attitude is getting worst now.Because im really very stessed.To people whom i give attitude to,i hope your will understand.But if you will dislike me or what so ever i've got nothing to say.Yesterday tonned,to botak brother..Sorry i knew you will be very disappointed in me,because of whad i done yesterday..Actually i only care about how you and datou thinks.You wont know how stress am i de really.But i hope,you would not anyhow think of me,cause you are my best brother..I promise i wont do what i done yesterday again..Sorry brother.But if really you think is i never listen to advice,i really did but just that im really very stressed..Nobody will know de,but if you really will think liddat.Im sorry,
Days are passing slower by each day,im very stressed..Very very,got no mood.My attitude is really getting worser,and me myself hate it too..From the start,i knew i wasnt a good girlfriend.I really feel like giving up,because i believe you can find better girls that can give you happiness..But i really cant afford to lose you.I know im not good enough,but still i will wait for you.I really love you alot,never had i fallen so much.But i really dont know..You will have better girls for you,i really very worried about you inside.Hope everything is going fine for you..Days passed,baby days without you are really hard.And im really very stressed,i dont even know wheather will i have this chance to wait for you outside..);'Dead sipei..
Whadever it is,my heart will only allow one person.That person is you,stupid ChouDaJing..I miss you luhs,how how?I miss you very much,the letters are still in my carboard,preparing to visit luh pass you de,I miss you very much luh.);'
And to xiaobaby,jovin and drea.Thanks for being there for me always.Always is only you all three there for me,no one else.Maybe last time joy will always be there?Somehow now,i cant feel our sistership love anymore..I dont know why,when i saw you at zouk you still asked me why dint contact you anymore?!Ask yourself,where's the last time us when we always stick together..You dint contact me too,did you?!Once,we always stick together,you should know.I dont even know why now i feel weird when i see you,i dont know why..Maybe cause,we really drift.
Xiaobaby sister,i knew we drift alot..But sister,i know you are always there for me..Whenever im helpless,you are always there.Maybe like whad you say,is confirm due to your probation..And i dont want you to breach..But i promised i will wait..No matter whad,i love you.How much we will drift,till the day your probation finish,everything will be fine..But i still love you alot,i hope we could spend more time together too.I love you..
This group sisterhood will always be deep in my heart,each and every sisters inside are also locked in my deep deep heart.Although now,everything is different..But,sisters inside are still standing the same place in my heart.Xiaoki,ah guo maybe you think i have new friends i dont want you.But that day i really is go meet jovin..Guoguo,my attitude is getting worst and hope you will understand im very stress luhs.Dreadrea,thanks for being there whenever i need you.Though i seriously hate your attitude,but you are there for me always too..Anything you can just tell me okays.Xiaobee taborh,thanks for cheering me up too(:Ahpui brother thanks too(:And to xiaobee jiejie im not avoiding you,is that i really very stress i really have no mood..Im sorry,i really damn stressed nowadays.Seems to me,there isnt any day i could be happy at all..
Monday i was at jovin house,i broke down into tears and jovin was shocked..She sat down and console me..At baby house,i broke down too.Baby and karen was there consoling me too.Karen sister,although we are not so close.But i promise whenever you need help i will be there too okays.I love each and every of my sisters and brothers who were always there(:Marilyn sister,thanks for everything too..Thanks for helping me in everything all my sisters and brothers.Baby,maybe im really not good enough for you..But i know i really love you,i know definitly there are so many much more better girls around you..I dont know,seriously i want you to be happy..But i still want to hold on,because i really love you.
Anyway,Zouk wasnt really very fun.Alot of people,nearly get pushed off the stage..-.-Stupid people..Tomorrow's st james!But i dont know should i go anot,cause if i dont go,Karen have to go alone..But then if i go,i think there will be misunderstandings again..And it will make things worst,everything is going to restart and happen again..So i thinking should i go,but cannot be leave Karen alone,but then i really dont know..This zouk event is pretty disappointing,some songs are kind of weird?!And many things happened since that day,thought that it will be fun ended up so disappointing sial..Disappointed,not only in that event.In some people too,seriously how disappointing it could be sial?One day and so many things happened,What the hell is happening..
Mum bought me fish noodle just now as i havent eat anything for the whole day(:Thanks mum(:Btw,the fish noodle is not very nice..But still ate it(:Anyway,chatted on msn..With dreadrea,xiaobee tarborh..The conversation is damn funny..Stupid prune(:Stayed at home for the whole day,and just quarrelled with marilyn sister..Sister,dont you understand?!It isnt i do it on purpose de ley,and im already very stressed as you know..I ownself already alot of things to stress for,and now one more thing is happening.How the hell you want me to handle so many things at one time?!Disappoinments..Many things is happening,i cant handle it at once,who will understand??No one!Sorry if im really having attitude problem,i knew now im having but its all due to my fcking stress mood.Hope you people could understand if really couldnt then im sorry.
Just now msn-ed with the stupid shorty daddy,amos(:Haha,and i knew one secret.Tomorrow he is going to meet nicolette,maybe i going to find them!But ask-ed daddy to miss called me,in the end he dint..You are trying to be funny daddy!Stupid shorty daddy,actually asked me if going for st james tomorrow,but i got not enough money also..Same situation as this shorty daddy(:Jiayou kay daddy!
Laughing outside,
Crying & bleeding inside
No comments:
Post a Comment