Baby,it extended to one year didnt it?Choudajing../<3
Why everything turns to be the other way round,im fucking tired of everything okay.Seriously,i went visiting you,and you look surprised?!Do you know,i really love you.But guess when you come out,im already inside and not outside anymore.Cannot be with you anymore right..
Baby,you must really takecare,dont repeat the same mistakes anymore alright.Kosipei will always love you,no matter wheather im inside or outside alright..Baby,your the first and will be the last that makes my world go round and round.Baby,i wrote letter for you,but guess when you see this letter im already inside bahs!I did something wrong,and losing everything outside including you is the consequences. I promise i will wait for you,but now i cant.
Although so,baby dont give up.Faster do finish your 8 more months,maybe you should just find a better girl then me that can be there for you and not make you suffer like how you will be next time right.Baby,i really cant bare to bade goodbye so even if im going in,im not going to bade goodbye to you until you wants to.Seriously,one letter cannot fills everything that i wants to say yeah.Fugging hell,i want to say so much.But cannot,not anymore yeah.Baby,you must really stay strong.I know you have a kind heart,thats why now your in.No matter how other people thinks about you or whatever,kosipei always thinks that choudajing is a good good and nice nice guy yeah!
Baby,just maybe a few more days im not gonna be there for you anymore yeah.Although so,baby must stay strong!Your parents loves you,norman and co also will be there for you yeah!Must know how to think already,dont always stands for other people and forget about yourself alright!We do worry about you very much,at least when i visited you i saw you doing well.Im happy enough already.Baby,we got alot of memories,didnt we?!
We had lots of undone promises right?I dont know if by the time i come out we still have chance to fulfill everything,but do remember me alright.Cause i swear upon god,i will remember you choudajing!No matter whatever outcome it will be yeah./<3love,i>
Yesterday,went to jurong east mrt station to meet up with boyfriend's dad.His dad,was super cute and nice luh!And then after that,went to coffee shop to have our breakfast.And then went visiting boyfriend.Although i went there,i recieved a big bad news.But then at least i can get to see you,and knows that your doing well inside..Seriously,love i miss you lahs!
Sherilynkungmunyee./<3
tomorrow you will be in..And both of us knows that we may not have any chances outside this year anymore.But theres always tomorrow,although i cant bare to let go of anything and everything..This is our consequences,we get ourself to so..
But promise me,lead a new life yeah..Who will wants to lose all freedom?Who will wants to lose everything outside aye?!Nobody right..I dont know,without all of you loves want how im gonna live.But soon,i also leaving my loves wants.
Everything we do,theres a consequence.And yeah,everything is selfish.Kungmunyee,lead a new life alright.Kosipei will always remember our,good or even bad memories.Hope you will love yourself more yeah,dont cause of anything then be stupid.
Seriously,now the closest to me that is outside is you already.Everytime will be there for me,its you.But very soon we are losing ourself.Veryvery soon right..How i wish,time could turn back.I can exchange my whole life for you,for datou and for ivan!Can take my whole life,just to not let your in.But i know its impossible..):'I dont care how people will say about you,i know how you are jiu enough already alright.From the day we get our that stupid case,we dint lead a day happy right.You always trying to think positively,but in the end it turns up this way.Kungmunyee,no matter what that is going to happen i will always be there through it with you..
Lynn chang/<3
We became very close didnt we?Although maybe very soon i cant be with you anymore.But must always stay strong,im the only one who knows your top secret!Haha,thanks alot for everything.I realised,you really understands how i feel.And your always there,you can even nearly cry when you knows what is happening and heard me cry!Thanks alot,i really am very glad that i know you!
Lastly,
to my dearest family members.I know you guys will always be there for me,yeah?I really feel regret for what i have done that hurt you guys so much.But then,the most important is i realise my mistakes yeahs.
My mummy is the best out of all,whenever i cry she will be there.Thanks alot mum.Maybe communication breakdown causes all these.Although so,at least we are better now aint we?I really hope,your will takecare.I dont know if i go in,how are you guys gonna live..But maybe you all will lead a better life without a troublemaker like me yeah!
I still cant bare to let go of everything outside,maybe i just need time to adapt..I saying until like i gonna die!LOL,But seriously my heart is bleeding.Heartbreaks is worst than heartpains!Its bleeding like never before.
Blogger is sucha bitch,couldnt upload photos O:
And yeah,on felicia's birthday supposingly going to xiaobaby sister's house.But in the end mum insisted me going home,so went home.And then contacted with lynn,as i know her freedom is limited so i decided to run out after mum slept and then went meeting lynn and co to celebrate felicia's birthday.Went to och,and then i dint want to go in.As it will only rewinds me all those memories with tou..
Really,although its a eerie place,but thats the place me and tou's first day and celebrated valentines together there.So decided not to go in,cause im scared that i may cry..So stayed outside with lynn and fel.[;
then after everything,went era to audi!(:And then around 11 plus went home with lynn.She came my house awhile,chitchatted and then i fall asleep.She woke me up at 1 plus saying she is going to go home.So yeah,went back to sleep.And then went to kfc to get my kfc meal.Seriously nowadays kentaky fried chicken is deproving luh!I swear genting wants will be much more nicer luhs!
Cried for the whole two days..One day,so many things happened.How these things expect me to solve?!Im just a 15 year old girl ley,but nevermind.Afterall,i have to find ways to solve everything what!(:
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